Busy

Busy by moochie.

Heart keeps pounding

Uneasy chest

Life keeps having

A reason not to rest

Silver linings

Longing for your caress

Heart keeps pounding

Love is suppressed

"weird"

People keep calling me weird and crazy. And now, ive started to feel abnormal if they dnt. Fact is, i am weird and so is everybody else. Truth be told, nthng is normal and nthng shud be normal. Living is nt lvng if u dnt take sme risks.

look around you, people. the best things in life are the oddest things, the most beautiful places are the weirdest of structures.. and the funniest faces are sometimes the most adorable romances.

I am weird. And im glad and proud to be weird. And i thank God im nt boring.

So the next time sum1 cals me weird, i hav to thank them and promse to keep it up. ;)

while polishing my nails:

i've been a bum for a month now and i've started a lot of new hobbies to pass my time and to add a little spice to my less than india-jones-exciting-type-of life. one of those things i started (or should i say, reacquainted myself) is nail polish.

it's been 1 week since i (re)started. and what i realized is that...

how i put nail polish is much like how i should go about with life.

in painting my hands i had to do it: one finger at a time. one color at a time. one layer at a time. it was always one at a time. i could not do them all at once. moreover i had to do them carefully and patiently. i had to take each finger seriously because that's how you complete the look--- all fingers should look the same even though their different. it's kinda vague, but what i mean is that nothing should be off so that the look of your nails is uniform and pleasing to the eyes.

and while doing it, it really made me appreciate the virtue of patience and the value of being patience. each time i paint a finger, i have to let it dry first before i put on the next coating. i have to wait about 5-10 minutes or more so that the coat can dry properly. and sure, 5-10 minutes doesn't seem that long, but sometimes it can seem forever for me... (i am a bit impatient.hihihi) but then i realized that impatience only works for the worst of me, because in order for me to get that really stunning and smooth polished nails--- i have to wait for the paint to properly dry so that when i put on the next coating, the nail polish would be harder and would not behave like clay (like when it gets too think and does not dry properly)...

and... i realized that.. sometimes i could be so over the top because i want a lot of things and i want to do a lot of things... but sometimes the answer to my impatience problem is just right infront of me (my fingers) HAHAHAHA.

because... all i have to do when my priorities confuse me is PRIORITIZE and evaluate which 'finger' should i 'paint' first. i can't do them all at once... so i should choose and do it all but one at a time.

take care

take care of the people you love. it's hard to find good people nowadays... so when you do... never take them for granted and take care of them as well as yourself. life is more worthwhile if you have good people to share it with at the end of a very hectic day. ;) you have no idea what the value of a good friend is until one day you lose and miss them. don't let that happen. i won't.

Nerd For Life

It’s been how long since I ended my internship, submitted my OJT documents, and officially ended my academic stay in DLSU. I’ve been a bum for a couple of months now. My daily task is to think of things to do, places to go to, people to see, and stuff to productively accomplish. It’s not as easy as it looks, but it is (A HELL OF A LOT ) less stressful than my previous to-the-dot planned days when I was still a full-time student in DLSU.

Now, I have freedom, space and even time for myself. Honestly, I love it—I MEAN WHO WOULDN’T??? I’m a workaholic—I like it that way and I love my life that way, but there came a time in the chaos of the hell TERMS, that I felt that I forgot myself: who I was, what I liked, the things I loved, and so on.

Now it’s different—I don’t have a syllabus anymore—SO NOW I get to decide what my life’s curriculum and performance-measures will be. Holistic is what I’m going for, well-rounded is what I aim for. I want to be able to synchronize all my interests so that they may be able to complement each other and inevitably help me become a better person/student/individual/daughter/worker/career woman.





It’s funny that I’ve been out of school for quite some time now, but still I’ve been learning so much, even more because I am now getting to apply the theories and fundamentals that I once memorized, noted, and recited in class.

And I’ve come to realize that it’s really important to keep on learning because we can never know enough. My mom has told me time and again that I should always strive to be better to keep on doing good, and now that I've been out in the real world for some time now, experience and day-to-day living has further strengthened that concept in my mind. There will always be new things to discover, new fields to study, new lands to conquer, new aspects to investigate, and new perspectives to examine. Just knowing that is humbling and motivating—to make me keep working hard and harder just to be good enough—that no matter what success you have now after a while if you don’t improve it or keep on succeeding then that confined-moment of victory would only be left in the past and would serve as no use to us anymore.

Almost every day I keep meeting new people and old people keep introducing themselves to me in new ways. I like learning about people and of people. I like learning, in general.

And I guess that is my promise to myself, to never stop learning. In the new worlds that I will soon venture into, the fact that I am a learner is both my shield and my weapon. I am humble enough to admit that I don’t know everything but I am confident enough that I can try.

SO! LOUD AND PROUD! I want to be a nerd for life. ;) HAHAHAHAHAHA


**disclaimer:
forgive me for stereotyping, it is not in my intention to offend nor to stereotype. the word nerd was used to add color and humor. hihihihi ;)

I hate "WORK"

if you know me and you know where i work— let’s just make this clear: no, i don’t hate my work— it’s just don’t prefer the word “work.”

Just from hearing the word, already connotes something most probably exhausting and time consuming. The word, from our preconceived (slash) ill-conceived notions of it, already exudes a black-and-white dull plus burdening feeling JUST FROM HEARING IT!

And if you’re a “workaholic” like me or used to be: then most probably images of stress and sleepless nights will spring into your head the moment you hear the word especially when you’re on vacation. Well, don’t get me wrong because personally i do love working but when your just transitioning from a short vacation to going back to the office and you still have that vacay-hangover well, then I propose that we change the phrase: Back To Work to back to play with pay. hahahaha

yes i know it’s longer… and probably it’ll take a little more WORK to say but then… doesn’t it just make you smile— thinking that after vacation you’ll be going back to PLAY WITH PAY.

it’s the same office, same type of work— so nothing changes EXCEPT your perspective on the whole thing.

longer phrase yet doesn’t it make you look forward more? hahahaha

The One Thing I Hate About Vacations is that: THEY END!

The One Thing I Hate About Vacations is that: THEY END!

I’m always like this, every after long breaks from either school or work I get nervous to go back. It’s like the first day of school all over again. Most of the time I just ignore the F-ing irritating feeling of butterflies in your stomach and most of the time it works but i am kind of getting tired of having it in the first place. (hahaha)

What is it with me and first days? I’ve been to a ton of schools already, and yes i have had a lot of first days already but i don’t know what is it with me and “first days” that i get nervous even though i’m just coming back from vacation. (hahaha)

weird isn’t it? hahaha and yes, i do just laugh about it but yeah. it can be a bother sometimes. :))