My simple wish.

My simple wish.

I guess, one simple wish I have for myself, is for me to be able to read and write. I adore writing, as many may notice but then the ability to do so didn’t come naturally. Actually my love to write is a fairly new hobby. During my grade school years I was a mess, and this went on till’ high school. I’m a bad speller, grammatical-error prone person and in all honesty I feel that I missed out on all the basic lessons on English during grade school. So what I do know is that I have a lot of years to bring back in order to keep up.

I really wish that there were an idiot’s guide to reading and writing and if there is I hope that some kind person can explain it to me. Hahaha. I’m not an avid fan of reading, though I want to be. When I say I couldn’t read, what I mean is I don’t have the knack for reading as some may do and when I say that I can’t write, what I mean is that I’m not a very good writer. Of course I know the basics of reading and writing, how else would I have been able to reach college, but then again what I want is a deeper relationship with book and pen.

I kind of, regret not being a nerd during grade school; I now suffer the consequences of my choice. Hahaha. I really wish I listened to the basics and I memorized my fundamentals, in order for me to move forward faster. But then, don’t get me wrong, I regret nothing from my childhood, “regret” is just a word I used to imply that… I wish I could have done things better.

I wish that I could read faster and be more comprehensive when reading or what ever term you readers call it. I wish that I could write like the writers whom my profs discuss in class. I guess what I want is for me to be able to express in writing what I can easily say in words and more. I have a lot of unexpressed emotion that I’d love to cleverly embed in my writing, some of love and hate, some of frustration and agony, and some of utter stupidity and intelligence. I’d love be able to write in as clever as I can be and be understood, to be able to write smart and interesting things that really do spark interest, to be able to communicate not only my message but also to introduce who I am to my audience. I’d love to be able to play pretend when writing, to be different persons in a story or as a writer. But then again, my wish isn’t far fetched all I need is time and my actual effort in order to make this a reality.

Why do I love writing? Simply because I love the idea of expression and communication, what better way to make a difference in some world, yours or mine, than be able to communicate what you feel, think and know to an audience. I have a lot of ideas and redundancies in my system and the only solution I see is writing for my expression. I am a constant talker or nagger, whatever term may be tagged on me, point is when my passion kicks in I cannot help but express it in some way or some medium. Writing is my way of releasing my excitement and unleashing some angst. And reading is a technique that I see fit for me to be able to write a lot better.

it would be nice to get back my youth and to take first grade english then work my way up again.