Still adjusting to office life.

Still adjusting to office life.

I have written many drafts that were a mostly about how I do not “PREFER” life boxed up in a cramped office, or how the office is a dead-end boring place but then I risk posting things that I may regret in the long run.

In all honestly, all I am really feeling is the pain from a pinch from resistance and a punch from reality. I am still adjusting to office life. I am not used to boring workspaces and quiet corners. I am not the quiet type and neither have I ever been that type. WORK HAS ALWAYS BEEN FUN FOR ME because I always worked with good and fun friends, noise was never an issue for as long as the quality of my work was never compromised.

I have always found work fun, even though I do not always admit it (because I do not want to risk being called a bigger nerd than I already am hahaha). BUT it is true, studying, programming, and other stuff has always been fun for me because I made fun out of it. Let’s just put it this way I am a bit unique, where else can you find someone like me, who can laugh really loud in the face of her problems, who can still smile in crazy situations, who can still be happy even if the world seems sooo bad??

Anyways, when life gets boring I do adapt, like when I was still an academic student: if my books get a bit boring, I sing the lines; If programming gets irritating I word-slur my computer; If reviewing for an exam gets too tiresome for me I draw on my review sheet; and other things like that that kept me from burning out every time the HEAT in DLSU gets to hot.

Generally speaking, everyone I worked with and even the professors I’ve met have always let me go about my weird (but I do like to think they’re effective) working habits and ways. People just let me be because they know that I never do slack off nor do I compromise quantity nor quality. I am a good and hard worker, but more importantly I am humble enough to learn more--- ALL I AM NOT IS BORING AND THAT IS WHAT I CANNOT STAND!

So, right now I am in a transition period from college to corporate. I know I can survive this. I am already adjusting to it and getting happier by the minute. Apparently I have some bibbo office-mates that I once thought were serious.

I am just human, I do need to adjust and it takes time. The only thing that I fear is that people, who don’t know me, might think I’m a bit of a slacker because of my preference for fun and the arts. But then, it’s okay because I still do need to prove my worth in this company. I just hope they don’t judge me before they get to know me. I could be a little bit over the top sometimes, but that’s my greatest asset. My greatest selling point is my ability to put color in my life no matter how black and white it becomes and I cannot lose that.

And for the record:

No matter how complicated life gets or seems to be, it's always the simple things that make a hectic day worthwhile. And of all the things that will change in my life, I hang onto my youth and essence the most-- i cannot lose my "self" in this dog-eat-dog world.

I love music, movies, cars, techs and stuff. I love walking to the mall and it doesn’t matter if I shop or not. I love having fun, in general: with or without booze. I am the type that would sing in a silent room and go with the tunes in my iPod. I’m not shy (at all). I am, for the longest time, who I am-- I know that is a bit vague but then all I really want in my life is to succeed without having to change too much of my essence. I embrace improvement suggestions, criticisms, and other stuff that would cause me to change for the better-- but then a lot of those wouldn’t have anything to do with who I am. I do believe that I can follow the ‘rules’ and be creative at the same time. I am no conservative, but I do respect the bounds of the society that I belong to and adapt to that challenge.

History has always rewarded bold and different people, and that is what I hope for.

So as i go back to work this monday-- I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT BEING MORE FUN AND SPECTACULARLY AMAZING! HAHAHAHAHA (a dose of positivity to get me going and keep me breathing more importantly keep me sane! hahahaha)